Hits & Misses

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Last night I slept for three hours. The night before, four. It’s interesting that I used to enjoy being awake at 4:00 a.m. Especially in the summer when I keep my window open and the street is so quiet that I can literally hear the air. My first all-nighter happened when I was thirteen. I was jetlagged after a trip to Australia. I thought, wow. I love 4:00 a.m., this is my favorite time of day. I used to have these quirks about me when I was younger.

For at least the first half of my life, I constantly needed to feel “even”. If I accidentally scratched my left hand, I would do it to my right hand without a thought. If I put my hair behind my left ear, I would do it with my right ear as well. If I bit my left cheek, I would have to bite my right. I don’t remember when I stopped, but it never slowly fizzled out. I stopped all at once.

I was a left handed child, and some have told me that they can tell, based on my personality. I remember learning how to tell time in preschool. I had a laminated, grey, clock-shaped cutout in front of me. It had a brass fastener with red, moveable hands. I wrote out the numbers in the way that made sense to me. 12, 3, 6, 9, and the rest in the spaces between. The child next to me started at 12, and kept going until 11, only the 11 ended about where the 8 should be. I remember thinking that since I was able to correctly write the numbers, it was obviously because I used my left hand and he didn’t. I didn’t take into account any other factors that might’ve played into why he couldn’t write the numbers correctly. I assumed that he put as much effort into writing the numbers as I did. Why wouldn’t he? In kindergarten my parents made me switch to my right hand, but some quirks, I never dropped.

It’s February now and it hasn’t stopped raining since what feels like November. I would like to be asleep at 4:00 a.m.

One thought on “Hits & Misses

  1. I woke up THIS morning, at 4 am. Prayed, strolled through my various iPhone apps and found you via an instagram shot of your cauliflower tacos! Wonderful things DO indeed begin at 4 am! (And now I’m Looking forward to following another fellow WP blogger.)


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